Le ncwadi yayicelwa uBenoni B. Gattell ngexesha eliphakathi kwe1912 kunye ne1932. Ukususela ngoko kusebenze kwakhona kwakhona. Ngoku, kwi-1946, kukho ambalwa amaphepha angazange atshintshe kancane. Ukuze ugweme ukuphindaphinda nokuxakeka kwamaphepha aphelile, kwaye ndiye ndongeza amanqaku amaninzi, imihlathi kunye namaphepha.

Ngaphandle kwenkxaso, akungabazeki ukuba umsebenzi wawuya kubhalwa, kuba kwakunzima ukuba ndicinge kwaye ndabhale ngexesha elifanayo. Umzimba wam kufuneka uhlale ngethuba lo ndicinga ngolu hlobo ngolu hlobo kwaye ndakhetha amagama afanelekileyo ukwakha isakhiwo sefomu: kwaye ngoko, ndiyambulela ngokwenene umsebenzi awenzileyo. Ndimele kwakhona ndivume iiofisi zothando, abanqwenela ukungabi namagama, ngeziphakamiso zabo kunye noncedo lobuchwepheshe ekugqityeni umsebenzi.

Umsebenzi obunzima kakhulu kukufumana imigaqo yokubonisa umxholo okhutshwe ngawo. Umzamo wam onzima ukufumana amagama kunye namaqhosha aya kubonakalisa ngakumbi intsingiselo kunye neempawu ezithile zezinto ezingenakonakala, kunye nokubonisa ukungahambelani kwabo ngokungafaniyo kunye nemizimba yabantu. Emva kokutshintsha ngokuphindaphindiweyo ndagqitywa ngokwemigaqo esetyenziswa apha.

Izifundo ezininzi azenziwanga ngokucacileyo njengoko ndingathanda ukuba zibe nazo, kodwa utshintsho olwenziwe lufanele lwanele okanye lube lukhuni, kuba ekufundeni nganye ukutshintsha ezinye kubonakala kululeka.

Andizivumeli ukushumayela kunoma ubani; Andizibukeli njengomshumayeli okanye utitshala. Ngaba akunjalo ukuba ndinoxanduva lwencwadi, ndingathanda ukuba ubuntu bam bangabizwa ngokuba ngumlobi walo. Ubungakanani bezifundo endikunikezela ngolwazi, lukhulula kwaye lukhulule ekuzikhumbuleni kwaye luvimbele isikhalazo sokuthozama. Ndiyazama ukwenza amazwi angaqhelekanga kunye neentloni kumntu owaziyo nokungafi osemzimbeni wonke womntu; kwaye ndithatha ngokungathandekiyo ukuba umntu uya kuthatha isigqibo sokuba uya kuthini okanye akayi kwenza ntoni ngolwazi olunikeziweyo.

Abantu abanomdla baye bagxininisa isidingo sokuthetha apha kwamanye amava am kwiindawo zokuziqonda, kunye neemeko zobomi bam ezinokukunceda ukucacisa indlela endikwazi ngayo ukuba ndijwayelane kwaye ndibhale izinto ezinjalo ukungafani neenkolelo zamanje. Bathi oku kuyimfuneko kuba akukho ncwadana yebhayisili ehlanganisiwe kwaye akukho zikhokelo ezinikezelwa ukuxhasa iingxelo ezenziwe apha. Amanye am amava am angafani nantoni na endiyivileyo okanye ndiyifunde. Ukucinga kwam ngobomi bomntu kunye nehlabathi esiphila kuyo kuye kwandibonisa izifundo kunye neziganeko endingazifumananga ngazo kwiincwadi. Kodwa bekungekho ngqiqweni ukucinga ukuba le micimbi ingaba yinto, kodwa ingaziwa kwabanye. Kufuneka kubekho abo baziyo kodwa abanako ukuxelela. Andikho phantsi kwesibambiso sokufihla. Andiyikho inhlangano yantoni na. Andiyikholo ukuthetha oko ndifumene ngokucinga; ngokucinga ngokukhawuleza xa ephaphekile, kungekhona ebuthongweni okanye kwihambo. Andizange ndibe nanini ndifuna ukuhlala kwimeko yokuziphatha.

Into endiyazi ngayo ngelixa ndicinga ngezo zifundo njengendawo, iiyunithi zengxaki, umgaqo-siseko wenkalo, ingqiqo, ixesha, ubukhulu, ukudala nokudityaniswa kweengcamango, ndiya kuthemba, ndivule imimandla yezinto ezizayo kunye nokuxhaphazwa . Ngaloo ndlela ukuziphatha okufanelekileyo kufanele kube yinxalenye yobomi bomntu, kwaye kufuneka uhlale ungalingani nesayensi kunye nokuveliswa. Emva koko impucuko iyaqhubeka, kwaye ukuzimela kunye noxanduva kuya kuba ngumthetho wobomi bomntu kunye noRhulumente.

Nantsi umzobo wamanye amava ebomini bam beselula:

Isiqhelo sasingumntu wam wokuqala wokuxhamla neli hlabathi lezinto ezibonakalayo. Kamva ndaziva ngaphakathi emzimbeni, kwaye ndandiva amazwi. Ndayiqonda intsingiselo yezandi ezenziwe ngamazwi; Andizange ndibone nantoni na, kodwa mna, njengemvakalelo, ndingafumana intsingiselo yeliphi igama-izandi ezivezwe, ngesigqi; kwaye ukuvakalelwa kwam kwanika uhlobo kunye nombala wezinto ezichazwe ngamagama. Xa ndingawusebenzisa umboniso wokubona kwaye ndabona izinto, ndafumana iifom kunye nemibonakalo apho mna, njengento yokuziva, ndandiziva ngayo, ukuba ndibe nesivumelwano esivumelwaneni nento endandiyifumene nayo. Xa ndikwazi ukusebenzisa iimbono zokubona, ukuva, ukunambitha kunye nokuvumba kwaye ndibuze kwaye ndiphendule imibuzo, ndazifumanisa ukuba ndingumphambukeli kwilizwe elingaqhelekanga. Ndazi ukuba andinguye umzimba ondihlala kuwo, kodwa akukho mntu unokundixelela ukuba ngubani na okanye ndiphi na apho ndivela khona, kwaye abaninzi balabo ndibabuza babonakala bakholelwa ukuba beyizimba ababehlala kuzo.

Ndazibona ukuba ndisemzimbeni endingenako ukuzikhulula kuwo. Ndandilahlekile, ndindedwa, kwaye ndikwimo elusizi yosizi. Iziganeko eziphindaphindiweyo namava andiqinisekisayo ukuba izinto zazingeyiyo le nto zazibonakala ziyiyo; ukuba kukho utshintsho oluqhubekayo; ukuba akukho nto isisigxina; ukuba abantu babedla ngokuthetha ngokuchaseneyo noko babekuthetha ngokwenene. Abantwana babedlala imidlalo ababeyibiza ngokuthi “make-believe” okanye “masenze ngathi.” Abantwana babedlala, amadoda nabafazi baqhelisela izinto zokuzenzisa nokuzenzisa; ngokwentelekiso bambalwa abantu ababenyanisekile ngokwenene kwaye benyanisekile. Kwabakho inkcitho kwimigudu yabantu, yaye imbonakalo ayizange ihlale ixesha elide. Imbonakalo ayizange yenziwe ukuba ihlale ixesha elide. Ndazibuza: Kufuneka zenziwe njani izinto eziza kuhlala, kwaye zenziwe ngaphandle kwenkcitho kunye nokuphazamiseka? Enye inxalenye yam yaphendula yathi: Kuqala, yazi into oyifunayo; bona kwaye ngokuthe chu ubambe engqondweni uhlobo onokuthi ube nalo le nto uyifunayo. Emva koko cinga kwaye uya kuthetha oko ngenkangeleko, kwaye into ocinga ukuba iya kuhlanganiswa ukusuka kwi-atmosphere engabonakaliyo kwaye ilungiswe kwaye ijikeleze loo fomu. Andizange ndicinge ngala mazwi ngoko, kodwa la mazwi abonisa oko ndandikucinga ngoko. Ndaziva ndiqinisekile ukuba ndingayenza loo nto, kwaye kwangoko ndazama ndazama ixesha elide. Ndoyisakala. Xa ndisilela ndaziva ndihlazekile, ndithotyiwe, yaye ndandineentloni.

Ndandingakwazi ukuzibamba xa ndandibukele iziganeko. Into endayiva abantu beyithetha ngezinto ezenzekayo, ingakumbi ngokufa, ayizange ibonakale isengqiqweni. Abazali bam babengamaKristu azinikeleyo. Ndayiva ifundwa ndaza ndathi “uThixo” wenza ihlabathi; ukuba wadala umphefumlo ongafiyo kumzimba womntu ngamnye osehlabathini; nokuba umphefumlo ongamthobeliyo uThixo uya kuphoswa esihogweni kwaye uya kutsha emlilweni nesulfure ngonaphakade kanaphakade. Andizange ndikholelwe nelizwi kuloo nto. Kwakubonakala kungekho ngqiqweni kum ukucinga okanye ukukholelwa ukuba nawuphi na uThixo okanye umntu wayenokwenza ihlabathi okanye undidalele umzimba endandiphila kuwo. Ndanditshise umnwe wam ngomcinga wesalfure, yaye ndandikholelwa ukuba umzimba wawunokutshiswa ufe; kodwa ndandisazi ukuba mna, into endiyaziyo njengam, andinakutsha kwaye ndingafi, ukuba umlilo nesalfure zazingenako ukundibulala, nangona intlungu yokutsha yayiyoyikeka. Ndandiyibona ingozi, kodwa andizange ndoyike.

Abantu babebonakala bengazi “kutheni” okanye “yintoni,” ngobomi okanye ngokufa. Ndandisazi ukuba kumele kubekho isizathu sayo yonke into eyenzekayo. Ndandifuna ukwazi iimfihlelo zobomi nokufa, nokuba ndiphile ngonaphakade. Ndandingazi ukuba kwakutheni, kodwa ndandifuna loo nto. Ndandisazi ukuba akunakubakho ubusuku nemini kunye nobomi nokufa, kwaye akukho hlabathi, ngaphandle kokuba kukho izilumko ezilawula umhlaba kunye nobusuku nemini kunye nobomi nokufa. Noko ke, ndazimisela ukuba injongo yam yayikukufumana abo balumkileyo babeya kundixelela indlela endimele ndifunde ngayo nento endifanele ndiyenze, ukuze ndiphathiswe iimfihlelo zobomi nokufa. Andiyi kucinga nokuyithetha le nto, isigqibo sam esiqinileyo, kuba abantu abayi kuqonda; babeya kundikholelwa ukuba ndisisidenge okanye ndiphambene. Ngelo xesha ndandimalunga neminyaka esixhenxe ubudala.

Kwadlula iminyaka elishumi elinesihlanu nangaphezulu. Ndaye ndaqaphela imbono eyahlukileyo kubomi bamakhwenkwe namantombazana, ngelixa babekhula kwaye beguquka baba ngamadoda nabasetyhini, ngakumbi ngexesha lokufikisa kwabo, ngakumbi eyam. Iimbono zam zazitshintshile, kodwa injongo yam—ukufumana abo balumkileyo, ababesazi, nendandinokufunda kubo iimfihlelo zobomi nokufa—yayingatshintshi. Ndandiqinisekile ngobukho bazo; ihlabathi alinakubakho, ngaphandle kwabo. Ngokulandelelana kweziganeko ndandibona ukuba kufuneka kubekho urhulumente nabaphathi behlabathi, njengokuba kufuneka kubekho urhulumente welizwe okanye abalawuli balo naliphi na ishishini ukuze ezi ziqhubeke. Ngenye imini umama wandibuza into endiyikholelwayo. Ngaphandle kokuthandabuza ndathi: Ndiyazi ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo ukuba ubulungisa bulawula ihlabathi, nangona ubomi bam bubonakala bububungqina bokuba akunjalo, kuba andiboni ukuba kunokwenzeka ukuba ndifezekise into endiyaziyo, kunye neyona nto ndiyinqwenela kakhulu.

Kwangaloo nyaka, ngentwasahlobo yowe-1892, ndafunda kwiphepha langeCawa ukuba uMadam Blavatsky othile wayengumfundi wezazi zaseMpuma ezazibizwa ngokuba “ziiMahatmas”; ukuba ngokuphila ngokuphindaphindiweyo emhlabeni, baye bazuza ubulumko; ukuba babeneemfihlo zobomi nokufa, kwaye babangele uMadam Blavatsky ukuba enze i-Theosophical Society, apho imfundiso yabo yayinokunikwa uluntu. Kwakuza kubakho intetho ngobo busuku. Ndiye e. Kamva ndaba lilungu elikhutheleyo loMbutho. Intetho ethi kwakukho amadoda azizilumko—ngayiphi na indlela ezazibizwa ngayo—ayizange indothuse; obo yayibubungqina bomlomo kuphela bento endandiqiniseke ngayo ngokwendalo njengoko iyimfuneko ekuqhubeleni phambili komntu kunye nolwalathiso nokhokelo lwendalo. Ndafunda konke endandinako ngabo. Ndacinga ukuba ndibe ngumfundi wezilumko; kodwa ukuqhubeka nokucinga kwandikhokelela ekubeni ndiqonde ukuba eyona ndlela yokwenyani yayingeko nasiphi na isicelo esisesikweni kuye nabani na, kodwa kukuba ndibe ndilungile kwaye ndilungile. Andizange ndibone okanye ndive, kwaye andizange ndibe nalo naluphi na unxibelelwano, "nezilumko" njengoko ndakhawula. Andizange ndibe nomfundisi-ntsapho. Ngoku ndiyiqonda ngakumbi imibandela enjalo. Ezona “Zilumkileyo” zii-Triune Selves, kwi-Realm of Permanence. Ndayeka ukunxibelelana nayo yonke imibutho.

Ukususela ngoNovemba ka-1892 Ndadlulela kumava amangalisayo kunye namava okubalulekileyo, emva koko, entwasahlobo ye-1893, kukho kwenzeka umcimbi obalaseleyo wobomi bam. Ndadlule i-14th Street kwi-4th Avenue, kwisixeko saseNew York. Iimoto nabantu babekhawuleza. Ngethuba lo kunyuka ukuya kwinqanaba lekhoneni laseNyakatho-mpahla, ukuKhanya, kunkulu kuneemitha eziliwaka ezivulekileyo phakathi kwentloko yam. Ngelo thuba okanye kwinqanaba, ixesha elide lafunyanwa. Kwakungekho xesha. Umgama kunye nobukhulu abukho ubungqina. Ubume bwakhiwa ngamacandelo. Ndayazi iiyunithi zendalo kunye neeyunithi njengezixhobo ze-Intelligences. Ngaphakathi nangaphezulu, ngoko kukuthi, kwakukho iMibane emininzi nangaphezulu; Ukugqithisa okukhulu kwiMiqondiso emininzi, eyabonisa iintlobo ezahlukeneyo zeeyunithi. Iintambo zazingekho zendalo; Beyizibane njenge-Intelligences, Light Lights. Xa kuthelekiswa nokukhazimula okanye ukukhanya kwalezo zibane, ukukhanya kwelanga kwakunobunzima obunzima. Kwaye nakuzo zonke izibane kunye neeyunithi kunye nezinto ndazi ukuba uBukhona beNkathazo. Ndayazi ukuba nguNgcengo njengoMntu oPhezulu kwaye ongenasiphelo, kwaye uqaphele ulwalamano lwezinto. Andizange ndibe neentloni, iimvakalelo, okanye ukuzonwabisa. Amagama ayaphumeleli ngokupheleleyo ukuchaza okanye ukuchaza UKUBA NOKUBHALISA. Kuya kuba ngongenangqondo ukuzama ukuchaza inkcazo ye-sublime ubukhulu kunye namandla kunye nolawulo kunye nolwalamano kwi-poise yento endiyazi ngayo. Kwezihlandlo ezimbini kwixesha elilishumi elinesibini elizayo, ixesha elide kweso sihlandlo ngasinye, ndayazi i-Consciousness. Kodwa ngelo xesha ndingazi ukuba ndingazange ndiyiqonde ngaloo mzuzu yokuqala.

Ukuba nesazela kwiConsciousness yiseti yamagama anxulumeneyo endiwakhethileyo njengebinzana lokuthetha ngalo mzuzu unamandla nobalulekileyo ebomini bam.

Ingqiqo ikhona kwiyunithi nganye. Ke ngoko ubukho beConsciousness benza ukuba yonke iyunithi iqonde njengomsebenzi ewenzayo kwinqanaba elazi ngayo. Ukwazi uKuqonda kutyhila “okungaziwayo” kulowo ebesazi. Emva koko iya kuba ngumsebenzi walowo ukuba azise into anokuyenza ukuba nesazela kwiConsciousness.

Ixabiso elikhulu ekuqondeni iConsciousness kukuba lenza umntu azi ngalo nasiphi na isifundo, ngokucinga. Ukucinga kukubamba ngokuthe gqolo kokukhanya okuConscious ngaphakathi kumbandela wokucinga. Ngokufutshane, ukucinga kunamanqanaba amane: ukukhetha isihloko; ubambe iConscious Light ngalo mbandela; kugxininise ekuKhanyeni; kwaye, ugqaliselo lokuKhanya. Xa ukuKhanya kugxininisekile, umxholo uyaziwa. Ngale ndlela, UkuCinga nokuPhelela ibhaliwe.

Eyona njongo ikhethekileyo yale ncwadi kukuba: Ukuxelela abantu abazaziyo emizimbeni yabantu ukuba siyinxalenye yabenzi bokungafi. ngamnye oobathathu emnye, i-Triune Selves, eyathi, ngaphakathi nangaphaya kwexesha, yahlala kunye neengcinga zethu ezinkulu kunye namalungu okwaziyo kwimizimba egqibeleleyo engenasini kwi-Realm of Permanence; ukuba thina, abazaziyo ngoku sikwimizimba yabantu, soyisakala kuvavanyo olubalulekileyo, saza ke ngoko sazikhupha kuloo ndawo yeSigxinaniso sangena kweli hlabathi lamadoda kunye nabasetyhini bexeshana lokuzalwa nokufa kunye nokubakho kwakhona; ukuba asinakukhumbula oku ngenxa yokuba sizibeka ebuthongweni boku-hypnotic, ukuphupha; ukuba siya kuqhubeka siphupha ebomini, ngokufa size sibuyele ebomini kwakhona; ukuba kufuneka siqhubeke sikwenza oku de siyeke ukulalisa, sivuke, ngokwethu siphume kwi-hypnosis esizifaka kuyo; ukuba, nokuba kuthatha ixesha elingakanani na, kufuneka sivuke ephupheni lethu, sibe nokuqonda of ngokwethu as thina emizimbeni yethu, size emva koko sizivelise ngokutsha kwaye sibuyisele imizimba yethu kubomi banaphakade kwikhaya lethu—Ummandla weSigxina esiphuma kuwo—ogqugqisayo kweli hlabathi lethu, kodwa awubonwa ngamehlo abantu. Emva koko siya kuthatha indawo yethu kwaye siqhubeke iinxalenye zethu kuLungelelo olungunaphakade lweNkqubeko. Indlela yokuphumeza oku iboniswe kwizahluko ezilandelayo.

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Kulo kubhala umbhalo wesandla walo msebenzi unomshicileli. Kukho ixesha elincinci lokungeza kwizinto ezibhaliweyo. Kwiminyaka emininzi yokulungiswa kwayo kuye kwacelwa ukuba ndibandakanye kwisicatshulwa ezinye iinguqulelo zeBhayibhile ezibonakala zingenakuqondakala, kodwa oko, ngokubhekiselele kwinto ekhankanywe kula maphepha, kunengqondo kwaye inentsingiselo, kwaye , ngelo xesha, ukhuthaze iingxelo ezenziwe kulo msebenzi. Kodwa ndandicinga ukuba ndiqhathanise okanye ndibonise iibhalelwano. Ndandifuna ukuba lo msebenzi ugwetyelwe ngokwawo kuphela.

Kunyaka ophelileyo ndiye ndathenga umqulu othi “Iincwadi Ezilahlekileyo ZeBhayibhile nethi Iincwadi Ezilityalwayo Zase-Eden.” Ekuhloleni amaphepha ezi ncwadi, kuyamangalisa ukubona ukuba zingaphi izicatshulwa ezingaqhelekanga nezingaqondakaliyo ezinokuqondwa xa ubani ekuqonda okubhalwe apha ngeTriune Self neenxalenye zayo ezintathu; malunga nokuhlaziywa komzimba womntu wenyama ube ngumzimba wenyama ofezekileyo, ongafiyo, noNdawo Ongunaphakade—nto leyo ethetha ‘ngoBukumkani bukaThixo’ ngamazwi kaYesu.

Kuphinde kwenziwa izicelo zokucaciswa kweendinyana zeBhayibhile. Mhlawumbi kulungile ukuba le yenziwe kwaye abafundi be UkuCinga nokuPhelela kunikwe ubungqina obuthile bokuxhasa iinkcazo ezithile kule ncwadi, ubungqina obunokufunyanwa kokubini kwiTestamente Entsha nakwiincwadi ezikhankanywe ngasentla. Ngoko ke ndiya kongeza icandelo lesihlanu kwiSahluko X, “Oothixo neeNkolo zabo,” esijongene nale miba.

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